2 Weeks and Counting...

Sorry no new pictures...mainly because I didn't plan on posting a new blog so soon but I was bored and in case you are bored you've got something to read for the next ten minutes. This is a pretty random blog, I guess it's just thoughts and spiritual stuff. I'm trying to figure out how to make it fun, because after this paragraph I'm not sure how amusing it really is. I have been listening to some new music lately mostly been enjoying a few to name are She & Him, Jeremy Fisher, Nevertheless, Hedley, Regina Spektor, and Asteria. Go check them out!


“I‘m just trying to find out who I am on my own. I had you right beside me now you’re gone and I know that when the room clears I’m still here, who am I when I’m alone?”
 - When I’m Alone by Nevertheless


2 Weeks and Counting

The time has passed so slowly here.
The snow, the cold, and this atmosphere.
I feel like the days are absent from what is real,
An unending sequence of dreams are all I feel.

The search of self is still ringing clear.
Glaring back in this awful mirror.
The brief moments I spend with a few,
Are the breaths I need to stay new.

Unable to see through this dust,
Clarity is removed preventing trust.
Unyielding to the disconnect,
Composure feels so indirect.

Paralyzed by the foreign air,
I need a little bit of care.


“We paint You in pictures well, we praise You and live like we don‘t. If you’d asked do we love You still, sometimes I can’t tell. It’s true…we’ve made it hard to see the light shining through the things we do.”
 - It’s True by Nevertheless

I know friend you are correct and I am often blown away at your wisdom. I understand the more I try to figure out my well-being the less likely I will get there. I need to get rid of myself every moment. It’s a constant conscious decision. Nothing that has been given to me is mine. Not my possessions, not my body, not my thoughts. They all belong to my Father. Yet there are so many days I wake up with worries and concerns that aren’t even mine to bear.

The words are so easy to say but the commitment feels like such a difficult thing to do. The key word is actually recognizing that to follow you is a lifelong commitment, it is a marriage, a union. The times when I fall away from You I am an adulterer and it hurts You. If I am truly committed to You, it is inexcusable to say I don’t need you in each moment of my life. God didn’t die merely to save us for us, He died for us to bring Himself glory. So for me to think that life has anything to do with a “me” point of view is completely messed up.. Everything we do in life should reflect a “His” point of view.

So why has God landed me here?  How long will He have me here? Those are two questions I think can sum up as the thoughts that have me puzzled.

“Not much to say I wish I felt something more concrete, something where I could plant my feet and try to breathe.” - One Last Time by Fair




“By the year 2020 I want to look at what we did, so we can stand up altogether cause we put an end to it; And there’ll be no more pointless fighting no more money running it, we’ll bring back love.”
 - Bring Back Love by Ace Enders and a Million Different People